i just reposted this...for those who can relate...
Set-up BluesContributed by ms byrne
Sunday, November 19, 2006 @ 12:00:14 AM
I found it hard to breathe after I closed the gate for him. I couldn’t believe the way I let all the chances pass by. I couldn’t believe he just said yes. It was surprising to see his eyes sparkle – where did his eyes get that glare; it was already twilight?
What a complete dumb I was. How could I be so stupid? Did I just arrange for a date between my best friend and the person I have come to like so much? Did I just tell her that he composed the best love song I’ve ever heard? Did I ask her to try to get to know him so she’d find out for herself how talented and admirable he is? Did I just suggest that he initiates the correspondence between them? Did he just say yes, he would invite her for a date? Didn’t he laugh so hard while has was telling me he wouldn’t bring me along?
My best friend’s testimonial was really accurate. She said I liked watching my favorite chocolates on display at a store but would never think of buying them. I need not consume the things that I want just to enjoy them, or maybe I consume them in ways that may ensure their preservation, so that others may also avail of the opportunity that I take advantage of. But he is in no way similar to a chocolate bar – he’s not sweet, he’s not presentable, he’s the same inside-out – no wrappers to conceal the goodness within. But I like him more than Lindt goodies. And he knows what he wants in life. And I treat her as if she was my own sister. And she knows somehow that he’s the type that I crave for…
And what do I know? That it was best to hold back before I fall? That I am not his type, so why would I bother? That my best friend deserves someone better than her childhood sweetheart? That I know what’s best for me and for the people I love?
Next week I will get to see them together for a date. Would she consult me about the suitable scent to wear, since she calls me the perfume expert? Would he ask me again about her interests? Would they ever know of the sacrifice I have been and will always be willing to commit to see them happy?
What do they know?
###############
